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Well done, I feel like I dont know myself anymore. I am so disappointed with myself. I am so lost, confused about life. FUCKING LOW MORALE/ CONFI. Really. Someone please save me 

I need to get this out of my chest. Few days ago, I felt dead. This time round mig had cause me to feel depress and so freaking sick that I thot I am going to die. The pain ruined my lifestyle and every morning was like hell miserable. Vomiting while tearing twice. I keep praying to get rid of the pain. Super downside of my life in this early 2012. All I can blame myself for laying like a boss and cause harm to myself. 

/Reminder to all, remember to rest your eyes from computer every 30mins. 

Condition now is better, but few nights I still feel alil of pain at the left head - neck. Not sure is sprained while mig. Shall wait for 24th specialist to ensure me that I am good and fucking stop the mig attacks. For now, I need to get rid of the stupid running nose and phlegm cum cough addition of mense. Gawddddd, so weak. Health is so fucking important. 

Everyone goes thru the same phrase, as long as I think of that I will feel like less worried. Couldnt let myself and family down. Gota nail it w lots of motivation for better living. Thankful for friends who has been encouraging me thru this toughness.  

Green light for good news. x